Yesterday I was overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with this awesome responsibility. Overwhelmed with emotions. Overwhelmed with guilt for my poor animals who have been so neglected. I miss them terribly. Overwhelmed with the urge to cry at every moment. When will my body finally heal and I can finally take a warm shower? Wear something other than loose pjs? Or even just be able to wear a bra? Will we finally get into a comfortable routine? Will we ever be able to sit in our family room and watch a movie and be a family again? Go out to dinner? Yesterday was just plain hard.
Today, I have a better outlook. The house is quiet. Just us chickens. I caught up on my favorite blogs, and gained a slightly new perspective. More positive. In love with our beautiful daughter. Excited for our new family.
I still long to get out of the house, take Mia for a walk around the property, enjoy the spring flowers. Get out of our bedroom and spend more time in the rest of the house. I am praying for warmer weather.
I thank God every day for Gabe. I would be lost without him.
Have an appt with the dermatologist in the morning. Hoping he can give me a miracle shot. Going to go by myself, get out of the house, refresh.
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